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thinking about volleyball player! sukuna getting upset because astrophysicist! reader doesn't wanna go with him in the shower after a long day of not seeing each other.
all volleyball player! sukuna wants is to hold reader's hand while he's cleaning his face for the night because he wants to feel you close after being touch starved.
because god forbid a loving devoted husband like him just wants to be with and feel his dear and beloved wife close to him after a long (heartbreaking) day of not being together. god forbid that this is his love language.
"are you actually mad at me?" sukuna pouts as he stands before you, still holding your hand. "do you actually not love me anymore?"
you sighed, looking at him. "my love, i did multiple labs today. i wanna be lazy right now."
"but i missed you." he whines to you, almost like a cat after not getting the belly rubs he wants. "come on, you can sit on the stool there while i look at you prettily at the mirror, still holding my hand."
"ryomen sukunaâ"
"woah, just say you don't love me anymore at this point." he cuts you off, his face looking offended. "that's not my name. how dare you?"
"my love, really....." you sighed, rolling your eyes at his antics. you looked up and saw him glaring at you, like he was ready to cry. "its just the bathroom. you're just getting cleaned up."
"god forbid a man wants to multiâtask." he huffs, shaking his head at you. his eyes looked like they were begging now. a sudden change from before. his hand squeezing your own. "come on, baby. just give in."
nearly a decade or so being together with such love with ryomen sukuna, you had always known that he was clingy but you never thought that he would be this clingy after getting married to you.
in some ways, marriage didn't really change your dynamics or your feelings for each other. that's just how it was when you've been so in love and continue to be in love after all this time.
but there was something about getting married that made the intensity of his desire to hold you, to touch you even more overwhelming. his life is incomplete when he's not feeling the warmth that completes the cold sweat that comes after he sits down and leaves the court for the day.
his body demands the warmth of you to complete him when the passion of the court cools down. because at the end of the day, he will walk out of that court. he will always go and in and out of it.
but you were the only one he could never leave. you were the only one that he will never resign himself away from. you were that only exception. because you bring him to life in ways not even the thunderous intensity of that ball hitting his palm ever would.
your warmth was more than anything that could ever be in this world. and he knows it. you knew it. so, yes, you could feel annoyed at the thought of him sulking and groaning and crying and moping with neediness for you and everything about you.
but it instantly goes away. because you love this man. and he loves you. that will never go away. annoyance is temporary but wanting to love him with everything despite it all is forever.
you looked at him for one more moment, seeing the tears threaten to fall down his eyes as though he was a little child about to have a crash out over not getting his favorite lollipop. you shake your head and started smiling and then laughing.
"alright, alright. just tonight, my love. after that, we'll go to bed."
you saw the threat of tears immediately disappear as he grins widely, almost as if his melt down had never happened. almost instantly, your husband became a golden retriever who has finally gotten a treat to enjoy.
he all but embraces you with everything in him, with you being nearly falling over as you get consumed by the warmth of his much bigger built. impressively, your hands are still locked in with his.
"my loveâi'm about to fall!"
he laughs. "baby, you'll never fall. not when im here to catch you!"
and you like to think that's the case. he's never let you fall anywhere. he's never let you suffer or feel like he never cares for you or loves you. instead, he keeps you high above with him in the joyous clouds, enjoying the bountiful of the love he pours everything into.
when you both go to the bathroom, he's doing his facial with his free hand while his other one still remained wrapped against your own. you continued to listen to him talk about his day with enthusiasm, his bright scarlet eyes never leaving your own, which was full of love for him.
"did you know they're finally allowing me to have my uniform and shoes engrave the 'my love' on it?"
you blinked. "you requested it? and they approved it?"
"i mean, i've asked about it the moment i signed for them babe! been wanting to keep you with me at court if i can't wear my ring." he says, beaming at you. "but since im renegotiating my contract with the tokyo great bears and with the national team, it was the demand i asked for in my contract and they said yes!"
you could feel your entire chest feel warm and your entire body turn red as the blood in pumped high with pressure, feeling overwhelmed by the love your husband has for you. you use your free hand to hide your face in your palm, out of sheer flustered feeling taking over you.
how did you ever luck out in love in a world that has such a bleak look? how could one have such a big heart to love? how could you not love him and only him? how could every bit of everything that is negative just burst out in positives when he loves you like this?
"baby, why are you lowering your head like thatâ"
"ah, you're so...." you groaned at him, before looking up, still red. "you're so!...."
he turns around, moved closer to you and pressed a warm kiss on your lips. you were stunned as the smell of his vanilla creme echoes into your nose. you turn redder than before.
"love you too, baby." he whispered to you, his eyes blossoming in heartfuls.
how can he always just defeat you with his love?
".....hurry up, i'm getting sleepy."
"hey, don't sleep before i can!"
#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk x you#jujutsu kaisen x you#jjk x y/n#jujutsu kaisen x y/n#ryomen sukuna x reader#ryomen sukuna x you#sukuna x reader#sukuna x you#sukuna x y/n#sukuna ryomen x reader#sukuna ryomen x you#sukuna ryoumen x reader#sukuna ryoumen x you#ryoumen sukuna x reader#ryomen x reader#ryomen x you#ryomen x y/n#sukuna jujutsu kaisen#sukuna ryomen#ryomen sukuna#jjk sukuna#jujutsu kaisen sukuna#sukuna jjk#ryoumen sukuna#sukuna#kayu shares ! ! !
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AD MORTEM CURRERE INFINITUM
please click for quality it helps a ton with the images lol
FINALMENTE i got it done!!!! yayaya! i wanted to add a littleeee flair so i did animate it! originally the chest was supposed to glow too but i accidentally merged those layers⊠hope this is okay!
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and translation: AN ENDLESS RUN TOWARD DEATH
yap session below: ignore if u donât wanna know abt the thought process on this lol
OKAY so! my 1x design changed a little bit, this piece felt a bit more dark so i tried really heavily to go towards dark, ominous colors for 1x, and lean straight into that demonic / skeletal look, rather than the more tree-like one mine is usually meant to look like, and i also tried to make his limbs more armor - like! this is loosely based off of my actual avatar of him, which iâll add here later. she also wasnât actually supposed to have her other eye visible (it was going to be a socket/pit instead) but the glowing eye added more contast in so i did it
as for tela, i actually struggled with him a lot! he originally was going to have those mandela catalogue looking eyes, and i was going to animate tjose blinking or glowing (probably both), but i wanted him to blend in a little more, like an omniscient, oppressive sort of background piece, so i dialed it down. he was originally going to have WAY more wings, but again, i wanted 1x to be the star (as she should be lol) and it was already feeling cluttered, so i pushed that away too. it took FOREVER to draw his clothes cause thatâs not something im great at, so i hoped that turned out okay lol, he was also originally going to have a SUPER creepy smile but it looked meh so i removed it, also! his halo (sorry itâs missing on the other version, i layered my stuff wrong so it got covered) is meant to be the fire ring in sfoth! i dunno if thatâs noticable, but i hope yall like that idea :D
overall im pretty happy with this piece, but it still feels a little muddled/unclear in a lot of places, if that makes sense? it was fun to make regardless, i like drawing these guys! tytyty if u read all the way thru! hope u enjoyed!
edit: the more i look at it the more im starting to dislike it, urghhh⊠but itâs one of my only finished pieces so iâll still keep it on here though
#forsaken 1x1x1x1#1x4 roblox#1x1x1x1 fanart#1x4#1x1x1x1#roblox forsaken#forsaken roblox#forsaken fanart#forsaken#betrayed 1x4#betrayed 1x1x1x1#telamon forsaken#forsaken telamon#telamon#forsaken shedletsky#shedletsky forsaken#shedletsky#shedletsky fanart#1x1x1x1 forsaken#forsaken 1x4#this was definitely tiring to work on lol#but so worth it!#i like stuff like this a lot#even if its draining#more art coming soon!!!
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Honestly at this point starting to feel I've managed to miss Jason's characterization while he was alive because he really really does not and has never seemed especially angry to me, but the comics are trying to hammer it in so much, it's like all they mention is his anger and impulsiveness and his death but like??
I can never remember jaybin (<-is that what we call jason robin for short?) being like that, certainly not to the extent they're always saying, to me his anger wasn't that much, and it pretty much matched with batman's, it wasn't greater than anyone else's, and it just felt like general new hero anger, I cannot stress enough just how off all these flashbacks and talking about him feel wrong to me
#dc liveblog#anger was like the last part of the story and All they talk about too. why can't they say anything else at all#i know he was the lonely robin but cmon man#crying screaming turning into dust emoji#he wasnt angrier than those around him. his impulsiveness while there wasnt stand out. his violence wasnt something looked on with concern#instead of reminding us about jason and how batman failed him all these flashbacks and mentions are just making me feel like#they didn't know anything about him and are projecting failure and only see faults#its weird#i figure reading precrisis first is affecting how i percieve him but i dont mind that i think his character shouldn't fully change after#still feel like im missing something though#like all they talk about is his anger all they say about him is his anger all they remember about him is his anger#and he was a 14 year old that at the very most was equal to the grown man in a bat costume when it came to anger#who was the person he was closest too#ive not gotten to the red hood yet and im not saying he was right. but i understand his perspective
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so, after not having access to my PC or time to draw for several days i had a cool idea i wanted to try but of course it didnt work out
so im posting the one screenshot i made and how far i got (its not very far and i got desperate at the end just spinnign around the colors in hopes it would solve whatever issue is blocking me from drawing properly..)
idea was to show just how scary it would be to encounter demise randomly in the land, hes really big in my story and its rarely clear bc in what i have drawn so far hes mostly only next to hylia and with her being taller than him they look rather reasonably sized
anyway, heres the unfinished thing

#ganondoodles#zelda#art#tloz#loz#demise#i miss the days where i could just .... draw#now my brain just gets bored after half an hour and frustrated if i split the work on it over two days#the only time i can still do it it seems are when i get hyperfocused on something but that is extremely rare#and comes with neglecting everything else like drinking or standing up#being an artist means being able to draw anything except for what you want to draw :))#i feel like the wip looks better lol#not trying again though bc im already getting irritated
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Vaggie: Alastor can you watch the eggs their being....eggs and I have to- just take them off my hands
Alastor: ooo i certainly will....
Vaggie:.....in a peaceful manner. Alastor.
Alastor: mmm well that's less fun, also why should I watch them?
Vaggie: well you're going to some meeting and I have to help charlie-
Alastor: didn't she excuse you from your duties for today?
Vaggie:...why would she- why would I ask for that??
Alastor: why, you have to come to this meeting to my dear!
Vaggie: no I dont?? It's an overlord meeting I'm not an overlord-
Alastor: but you are!
Vaggie: if anything charlie should probably be going with you rather then me- what what??
Alastor: I'll explain on the way! *just fucking leaves*
Vaggie: wha- alastor! Alastor I swear to the lord you better explain!
Alastor: hmmm, well you're an overlord my dear I don't think there's anything else TO explain
Vaggie: right...but I'm NOT an overlord??
Alastor: I beg to differ, I knew there was something off about you but couldn't place it until Charlie said something
Vaggie: Charlie- what does- okay you know what? You're insane. I'm going to go talk to Charlie myself!
Alastor grabs her shirt collar like a kitten: ah-ah-ah you have a meeting to attend my dear! It's be bad manners if you skipped it, whoch I suppose you've been skipping them for the past 5 or so years?
Vaggie: No, I haven't! and let go of my you asshole!
Alastor: hmmm no I don't think I will~ come on now! We're already half way there!
Vaggie: ugh, at least tell me how you and xharlie think I'm an overlord- which I'm NOT by the way!
Alastor: well...do you remember that sinner you saved? The one you had a slat with and ended uo teaching self defense?
Vaggie: how do you-....ah, charlie- what does that have to do with anything??
Alastor radio noise of displeasure: well, APPARENTLY they told more demons, you DO remember the large influx of demons who came to you right?
Vaggie: I.....I um....yeah....
Alastor: well they said they owed you 'favors' correct?
Vaggie:....fuck.
Alastor: they gave you their souls until said favor is called upon! You not using it has apparently given you the reputation of a very lenient overlord, a defensive and protective one at that! So more people cane to you, you trianed them in defense and most gave you their souls so you could call upon them for a favor at a time of your choosing!
Vaggie: going through the 5 stages of grief trying to process it all
Alastor: On top of that, the other overlords seem to be threatened by the fact you have so many souls and demons going to you WILLINGLY, you not showing up to meetings and beong little morningstars girlfriend doesnt help that either!So this will be a fun first meeting~
Vaggie: no no no no no nope! Alastor, you let me go right this second! I am not- no! Alastor! Alastor!!!
Zestial: Alastor and...oh the defensive Overlord nice to meet you again nd to finally meet you
Vaggie: ¿¥Quién diablos es esta araña joder!? (Who the hell is this spider fuck!?)
Part 1 | Part 2(here!!) | Part 3
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel au#hazbin hotel vaggie#hazbin hotel charlie#hazbin hotel alastor#chaggie#accidental overlord vaggie au#i feel like Al would be pissed at vaggie knowing charlie told him#he lieks to seem mroe powerful/high and mighty and he cant bw that if she knows he gets info form other people#hes very smug at Vaggies panic though#charlie meanwhile already misses her girlfriend#Nifty throwing herself off the roof doesnt help#hazbin hotel overlord#the egg boizs are having a grand old time though#i used google translate for the Spanish part im sorry if its wrong-#i wanted vaggie to say âwho the hell is this spider fuck!?â but everytime i tried it always ended up as something different#i tried for like 1p minutes#i THINK i got it down but im not sure if the '!?' changes any words/symbols#translator says it does but im not 100% how right it is so- if its not that then its 'who the hell is this fucking spider' which still work#not to important i guess lol#diablos actually mgiht mean devil and inferno hell but uh....its- its fine#any spanish speakers feel free to correct međ
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does anyone ever think about how rachels post gm lifestyle is basically as taylor described to her when they met up in new delhi and taylor never got to fulfill her side of it.. but a part of her will always be in rachels life because it was taylors care and companionship that helped rachel forge this life for herself and build a community that supports her.....
#one thing ward was good for was getting me really emotional over rachel lindt and how far shes come#sometimes i spontaneously remember her letter in worm and get nauseous#'being around you wasnt simple or quiet but things made more sense' lets all go kill ourselves right now.#taking the puppies round taylors place to show the kids... and she continues that years after. cause its fun for both her and the kids..#dont even get me started on#'your minion with the dark hair says we need to be around people but im around people and still feel somethings missing'#i will blow this whole building up. i mean it#they loved eachother so much and though taylor was too busy killing herself to remain with rachel#the time they spent together shaped rachel as a person and she carries taylor with her in that#ive spent like the last 30 minutes writing and rewriting this shit through tears theyre really getting to me#parahumans#wormblr#wolfspider#to be loved is to be changed and whatnot
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@vanweek2024 day 7 - sunrise
tomorrow is another day
#my art#vanweek2024#vanny#vanny fnaf#i am aware that this was probably meant to be a happy prompt#but i feel like any other idea i would've had for this would've involved sun LMAO#anyway im actually rlly happy i finished all of these :] i wasnt able to finish all the drawings i was gonna do for october#so its nice to actually complete something on this blog HFKZJGKF#i guess i'll go back to drawing đđ now.... AFTER I TAKE A LONGGG BREAK FROM DRAWING EVERYDAY AHAHAHAH#seriously though.. the dtiys and this week have been all i've been able to do in my free time... i miss video games ;;_;;#it was still a lot of fun though.. im glad i did it ⥠i love u vanny
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sorry about all the what we do in the shadows spam, I watched the finale and realised how much I deeply care for this show and I was VERY sad about nandermo
#im just tired of the whole âOH WILL THEY????â#AND THEN ITS JUST A JOKE#even though the show showcases a lot of queer characters they are never queer on-screen except for that one boyfriend guillermo had#I just wanted a little something something âwe've been gay this entire timeâ ending.... a little confirmation.... my boys#I still love this show and its wacky characters so much#I just feel like the last season was one big fat missed opportunity#wwdits#what we do in the shadows#personal
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HI CAN I BEG FOR MORE NETSOD CONTENT ON MY HANDS AND KNEES I LOVE THEM I LOVE YOUR ART AND I BEG OF YOU KILL YESOD WITH THE BEER MAN. "I think I'm dying" was too funny. he would think he's dying the nanosecond he realizes heartrate rises not just with work anxiety, but affectionate social anxiety. valentines is going to send him to the ER watch
i was going to make a smaller post abt it. a simple shitpost. but it ended up being longer. about 9 pages or the sort in total. i tried to have it out during the literal date for it but most likely it will be out in the next hopefully at most 30 hours ... .. answering this now so you dont think im ignoring it. the actual finished result be posted in a seperate one. as you can see. dialog/planning plus four pages are done art wise already though!!



small sippets from progress plus yesod from the warmup doodles as a peace offering .. . ..
#[cent miscellaneous]#library of ruina#Netzach#Yesod#one (1) tag for navigation purposes. i wanted to be able to do it by valentines but the workflow for it ended up being longer than predicte#mostly because i ahhh brainfog. first day. technically this is the second day of actually being able to work on it. yesterday was dialog/#reread/page set up. then trying to sort out further of how i wanted to format it. i wasnt happy with it first go for dialog because im not#very good at romance? or anything really intimate or relationship wise. wanted to try and make it work though. its still going to be awkwar#though its inescapable. the awkwardness bleeds through everything i do. uhm. rip bozo or something AHHH#did i need to reread and try to make the dialog somewhat reminiscent of them. well it feels like it. did i need to make notes for something#silly. .. . .. no... . . did i? .. . . . yes... ... . .#anyways theyre fun i think. it will be real. soon. promise. ive been focusing on it primarily with the free time i have. trust#trying to make it somewhat more presentable since i already missed the intended date for it though.. not rush it. As Much.#.... the writing will still be ooc. who cares (extremely anxious) . heh. literally dont gaf. just having fun (self conscious and dying)
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worst part about cptsd is the chronic loneliness methinks
#spacie spoinks#not loneliness in the sense most people think where they're not around people#it is a loneliness i have felt since i was a child even when im around people#its a really strange emotion. something that makes my bones feel heavy#to feel lonely even though im surrounded by people who love me#and want to talk to me and frequently reach out to do so#it makes it a bit more painful too#b/c no matter how much i get to know someone and enjoy their company i am still. lonely.#its like im missing a part of my soul or something#ive seen a lot of other cptsd havers talk about this as well and the general consensus is that it never goes away#you just learn 2 live with it#which is fine#i just wish i didnt have to keep learning to live with stuff like this lol#kind of a vent actually#in a sour spot b/c of this#vent
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i know ive said this already but i want to say it again and again and again but so many people have made these last eleven days easier. I mean nothing ablut this has been easy, and I do still feel guilty about even THINKING about the fact I'm not crying 24/7 but like. The internet made the cost easier to bear. Friends have gone for walks. Given me hugs. Sent goodies. All to ease the pain. Despite it all, I am still so so blessed. From the bottom of my heart, thank you <3
#bookbird babbles#gonna play pokemon scarlet with leo#friend sent me a giant black cat plushie that 1) made me cry (reset the clock yall) and 2) is PERFECT hugging size đ#the cranberries???? something so small yet doing heavy lifting#friend and i walked to the park and went stargazing#im just. i feel like i don't deserve it but at the same time yes i do#i miss him#the er vet also sent a sympathy card that i got today#(momther opened it)#(i couldn't bear it)#(though i did read it after she said it was safe)#despite it all im still me
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#in cleaning my room yesterday I activated some of the like. dormant dust that was laying around and i didnât get much sleep last night#bc i was just coughing and wheezing and stuff. i got the rest of it this morning but I still feel like shit and i donât wanna go to class#i feel like i canât#i know im lucky but i feel like im always sick or something is always in pain or im fatigued. Itâs a wonder i get anything done#I think im suffering from senioritis even though i still have grad school#iâm just so so tired#my prof was wearing a mask last class which isnât normal in my area and like. good on her for wearing it but if sheâs sick she shouldnât#come to school#idk why (actually i do itâs capitalism) itâs so normalized to keep going to school and work even if youâre sick#like you canât miss for menstrual cramps or allergies even if they get debilitating. canât miss for a mental health crisis#iâve had coworkers throw up mid shift and keep working bc they canât afford to clock out#i feel like itâs only acceptable to stay home sick if youâre continuously throwing up aka not useful for the business#ugh#rose.txt#tw vent
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sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.
but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.
I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.
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#dont know why continuing in tags but here is more#sometimes we need to ask âwhyâ and not just get mad about how we feel personally. because other people feel differently#yes im guilty of only thinking my feelings and situation and how it relates too and forgetting other peoples. i also need to learn#and everyone's feelings should be valid. just because something might âhurtâ you it might be important for someone else#everyones feelings are valid. but we cant protect everyones feeling. so idk the solution#but stopping someone from having a small positive among a sea of nevgative seems a little mean to me#youre not being empathetic to their side. and i can turn it around and be not empathetic to your side and say stop being upset#and get over it and let people have fun. but i wont. i hear you. but at the same time maybe hear us too.#not everyone wants to live only negatively. youre allowed to but dont expect others to.#and yes i GET IT these things can make the allistics and neurotypicals be even worse towards us. but what do we do?#throw out any positivity we can find and grovel in our struggles because the allistics wont take us seriously?#DO THEY TAKE US SERIOUSLY WITHOUT THOSE SILLY TRENDY THINGS? NO! THEY NEVER HAVE#like i said i dont know the solution and everything still be used against us by those people anyway so might as well have fun?#if we focus on struggles they baby us and dont let us do things and block us from living life#if we focus on positive they dismiss our struggles and try to make us do what we cant and dont help us#we cant win! so its not âthe 'tismâ or whatever other things people made up that cause them to act this way#they already act that way and wont stop unless we figure out how to teach them! but i dont know how! im just a useless little creature#this is probably controversial and someone will get because i dont agree with their perspective despite respecting it#someome will comment to lecture me even though i get it. i do. but two things can exist at the same time!! idk what to tell you!#autistic#autism#actually autistic#lee rambles#words are hard so dont know if i worded it well or not. probably not#also why take away fun things because another group used it for bad? make them stop the bad not stop the good!#i also might be missing more context. i think is about tiktok using these for bad. tiktok is just bad in general and i refuse to use it#why tiktok dictate and ruin our lives now in general? tiktok is really bad đ but that another conversation#no one yell at me and say i dismiss struggles of struggling autistics. maybe you dismiss me needing negative thing to have positive?#not in mood for negative response. will probably cry fhhddhsjdjdjkd#today is real struggle day but if i be little creature i feel better
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FINALLY DONE WITH THE ISAT OC! SOLEIL!!!
The creature... So first things first is some info about them pre- disappearance of The Country. They're a loyal follower and avid worshipper of The Country. They love the Universe sooo much that they made a wish to be able to read the stars, and the Universe answered. I like to think that the stars are talkative, some can predict what will happen in the near future, some are just "chatting" to each other about the stuff happening in the world they overlook. It's a somewhat useful ability that Soleil used to use to be able to either predict someone's future (rarely though, the stars hold many different futures and it's hard to figure out which is whose) or use it during funeral rites to have a more reassuring experience to the ones mourning that their loved one arrived safely among the stars.
And then they found out about The Cursing of Chateau Castle-- they kiiiinda got Really obsessed with the book series that they wanted to know more about it but there wasn't any more copies of it in the Country's language so what better way to deal with that but teaching itself how to understand the Vaugardian language, and by doing that they got to learn more about the Vaugardian culture and was really amazed by it (considering that they spent most of their life with the Country's culture instead, learning about a different culture is a great feeling). One thing led to the other and it also led Soleil to travelling to Vaugarde (something that their family wasn't all that happy with but they stay silly).
And so we're back at the present time! Now to talk about some details on its appearance.
Its Craft type is Scissors! The eye on the center of its chest and the eye by its nape are in fact EYES and not just accessories (although they did try to make the eye on its chest appear to be like a mix between a star shape and the Change Symbol).
After spending some time in Vaugarde, they learned about Body Craft in which case they decided to experiment with it in regards to its eyes.
Since being in Vaugarde, there wasn't much use to its star sight and there also isn't a way to "turn it off." So instead, they decided to separate its Normal sight from the Star sight by adding another pair of eyes on its body.
The eyes on its face are blind. They can't see through it anymore but they Can still see the stars (they can't read it anymore however cuz of the Country's disappearance).
If they focus on the stars using those eyes, they'd get a REALLY bad headache and a star sign appears on its eyes. Nothing to be afraid of probably, its head just Really hurts.
The glass covering the eye on its nape is a one way mirror. You won't be able to see the eye but the eye can still see you.
With its vision split, it actually took them awhile to get used to that. It takes a lot of concentration and focus to see both from behind and from the front. When Soleil gets tired from doing that, they either close the eye on its nape (if the place is safe enough) or unfocus it enough to the point that most of its vision becomes blurry with only being able to see blobs of shapes and shadows which helps them be alert enough in case something comes running at them from behind.
All the round objects you see on its body are Bombs. They found out about Bomb Craft in Jouvente and was so fascinated by it that their inventor brain (inventing, crafting, and repairing stuff is a special interest of theirs). They now like making bombs and inventing new ones (only they have the recipe of those).
The bombs they invented only detonates via a Craft spell, it's basically as safe as an ordinary ball to handle unless detonated. Also the scissors at the top of their head has a cover on its tip. It's Very Sharp. They mainly use that (either the tip or the scissor blades itself) to cut the bombs dangling on its body.
Despite the multitude of bombs they carry, they aren't actually much of a fighter (they just like bombs). Most of its Craft spells are basic/beginner level. The one and only Powerful Craft spell they have is a shield/defense spell that they practiced several times. It's capable of negating all damage for 2 turns with a 5 turn cooldown, they wanted to master that spell to make it so that bombs won't hurt them no matter the close proximity.
Its hand signs are "broken." They used to mimic the hand signs that the Universe (I'm mainly referring to my design of the Universe) makes. But after forgetting about everything in regards to it, they can't remember what hand signs they used to make but the familiar feeling was still there.
A huge fan of The Cursing of Chateau Castle, to the point of practically making it part of its identity now that a HUGE chunk of its memory is missing. Its outfit is a modified version of what they think Lady Irene-Janine-Karine wears.
Its personality is a mixture of Lord Josephandre, Pierre-Jacques-Erneste, and Lady Irene-Janine-Karine (aka the Chateau Trio!!! Love those three...).
Its name, "Soleil" is just something they found in a book and decided to use for itself. They don't remember its name anymore.
#ariart#ariaoc#isat oc#isat spoilers#theres some danger in the fact that sol took pierres personality too considering that pierre betrayed the party that one time--#honestly if i think about sol harder i begin to realize that theres A LOT of things wrong about them mentally#what forgetting a country with a belief system you were incredibly loyal to does to someone i think.#also making it so that sol was the npc that translated that one issue of the cursing of chateau castle from vaugardian#into the language of the Country. if you were to enter its home. youll be greeted by a LOT of bookcases and shelves and books#and therell be at least 4 of those dedicated to the cursing of chateau castle. original version and the ones they translated#there will ofc be sections where its about the Country tho. actually i think if siffrin visited its home he'll be able to know more#about the Country. if he became close friends enough to be able to enter the rooms with the books of it. sol couldnt read them#anymore but feels as though those books were important so they moved it elsewhere for safekeeping. making sure to maintain it too#also yea you can now see exactly how im pushing the isat worldbuilding to its limits via body craft#i like to think that if in case body craft operates in a similar manner to alchemy in that by Changing something theres an equal#exchange to be given. if its Changing your appearance to a new one then the equal value to be exchanged is the Old appearance#but if for example theres a missing body part. youd have to find Something else of equal value to replace it then#and by going off of that same principle. if a body part has two functions (like with sol's eyes having a special sight to it)#then by Changing its appearance. the equal value follows the same principle of the: exchange Old for New#except that in sol's case. with the addition of a body part that has two functions. technically speaking they can Separate the#two functions while still following the usual method. it's just that now theres another set of eyes on its body. still a New appearance tho
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uh oh my brains going "hey remember making youtube videos you liked making youtube videos you should go back to making youtube videos"
#i stopped because i became obsessed with Percy#and was like well i refuse to make a video about him for obvious hp related reasons#will i? idk#i feel like id go about it differently but i do kinda miss it#even though i would need a new monitor still dsjfakd#i think it might be fun to have a shipping channel because i find myself looking for that kind of stuff and can not normally find it adlkfs#would i find the time for it (she says as if she doesn't waste most of the day away? well that is the question huh?#also i think id need to make it some weird name#because i think id want to talk about some pretty problematic ships akljsfd#not hp though#im still of the opinion that something like youtube videos are too far personally
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(guy who never finishes her 80% done vocal synth projects voice) i need to practice with asterian 2... do my dearest asterheads have any hashtag song suggestions
#preferably jp or eng because those are the languages im most familiar with the phonemes of LOL#i do need to learn other phoneme systems though..... someday#i have a couple wips but i wanna play more with 2 before i decided which engine i want to use hee hee#asterian II is crazy btw i feel like someone saw that i was good at riding a bicycle and immediately put me in charge of a shipping truck#every vocal mode is into the stratosphere now its NUTS#like hold on. hold on. how do i steer this thing. hold on. very fun tho <3#tbh every sv2 native vocal has been lowkey unreal that ive heard#one pr problem this software has might be the fact that sv1 voices are so hit or miss on it. its slowly getting better!#but the ver1 support is. messy. and crashy <3 but as it gets improved and more popular voices get ver2 updates things will be fun i think#im still not over some of the expressiveness i was able to pull out of mo xu's trial...... these ver2 voices are Something Else!!!
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